I Am speaking my truth. At times it’s difficult for me to do so as some of you who know me, but I feel that it’s a must.
As a highly sensitive (I’m a keen intuitive spirit) individual who preaches her insightful teachings to those that want to hear. Although it may not be what they want to hear it’s what’s needed nonetheless.
It seems that I’ve been sensing a whole lot of people are hurting. Why? (see above, intuitive) because I’m hurting. There are FB posts what they are doing and who they are sharing a joy with, but underneath it all, there is a vulnerability of some battle they are fighting. Not always a big one, but some sort of battle.
Not sure exactly the specifics, but, I feel that there are a whole lot of us that are dealing with some level of heartbreak, loss, pain, regret, fear, anger, silent anger, frustration, etc. We go about our day putting on our happy face, but underneath there is some level of pain. Suffering. Wondering “when is it my turn to be happy”, or “ why not me” now.
I post enlightening, empowering FB posts because I read and practice my spirituality daily. Why? Because there is a certain amount of constant flow of uplifting vibes that I need. And, it seems that I am in need of that more now than other times. It helps me tune into my connection with spirit or God (or whatever works for you), but it reminds me that I am loved, NO MATTER WHAT, and that my purpose is to do just what I do. Breathe. Meditate. Read spiritual texts, books. To remind me of who I am, my truth. That I am one aspect of god, a sort of Godlet,
What I want to admit is that although I may post positivities, only because I love them, I do it to remind me again, and again, and again, that by doing so also corrects my subconscious mind from playing the broken record of false truths belayed upon me years and years ago. My evolution is just that, me evolving into the nextstep of my path.
I am, just as you are, an inherent good if not great person. Although sometimes, somewhere along the way, that universal known gets sidetracked and starts speedlining towards a train wreck for sure.
I know that I have the wherewithal and the tools, or toys as I like to call them, to slow that super train down of negativity and speed up the happy train. It’s not easy sometimes, but it is essential. Why? To be Me! Not anyone else. Just Me!
I’ve passed the baton to you. Be you. Not me, not your neighbor, not your best friend. Find the gumption, to stand in integrity and voice your voice, not the millions of other voices in your head or on any social media. Speak from the heart and be heard. Who needs to hear you? You because that is the only one that needs or wants you, is you! Yes, there are a lot, and I mean A LOT of people who want you, need you and love you for you being you. See, there’s a lot of YOU. Share you.
When we voice our truths, even our vulnerabilities, we release and speak so others can do the same.
In my earlier post, Are You a Plate Spinner, I spoke of letting go of spinning a lot of my plates. What I did not allude to was the path that I took to allowing myself to let my spinning plates fall. Actually, I did not let them fall; I just let go of having to keep them spinning.
In other words, I did not do what most everyone thought I would or should do, and that was rescuing, solving, or advising them when they came to me for help.
I gave myself time. Time to ponder who I was and what my purpose in my life was, for me.
How Did I Do This?
First, was to get back to my meditation practice. Every day. For at least 15 minutes. Some days it was longer and others a few shorter, but to get back into the routine of getting up in the morning and taking 15 minutes to quiet my mind. It did take some time to getting used to, as my mind runs at at least 60 mph if not faster. Then there’s the ego that likes to distract or discount my meditation.
So, I had to quiet my ego. Tell it to take a time out. Sweep out the cobwebs in my mind, open the windows, dust and clean out what did not serve my greater good. Not that I was going to fill it with anything, mind you, just a spring cleaning.
Meditation is very important on many levels. Health is first and foremost because by quieting the mind, it calms the heart and allows me to remain at peace when there is chaos all around. And, for me, that was the most important aspect of why I meditate. To be at peace and remain calm while going through my day, when traffic might be bad, work can get tense, or a friend is in a state of panic. All of these occurrences are going to come up in our lives and how we respond to them is what determines our health and longevity in our life.
Second, I had to let people know that I was not going to show up as I used to, that I was taking a sabbatical of sorts. For some, this was okay, but for others, not so. As stated in my earlier post, some got a really big chip on their plate. What I learned during all of this was that what others think of me is none of my business. And, vice versa. When I removed myself from how others thought of me whether I showed up as they desired or not, my life got a whole lot easier. It took time, but it was and still is so well worth it.
Third, was finding my joy. I had to do a lot of soul searching and I came up with the simple rule that I live by and that is to have fun. Being child-like, is first and foremost how I live my life. Remember what you used to do when you were a child? Or, how you looked at life when you were young? Play is the highest form of research and that is how I live almost every day. Yes, I do have moments and some days that I have to do some things that are required but what I do about those moments and days is that I make it a game.
Why? Because I get more excited and when I get more excited I see the possibilities in any situation. It is easy, so easy! When we start being child-like, we get the opportunity to feel the energy of our source, God, who wants us to be just like the child we were and if you think about it, always will be. We are all someone’s child, and, we are also God’s child. Made in the image and likeness of Him. All he wants of us, is to be happy, joy-filled and create a beautiful and fun place to live in for the short period we have on this Earth.
Take the time to Meditate, be Truthful and Playful.
When I was young, often, my brother, sister and I would visit my paternal grandparents at their cabin during the summers.
It was our indoctrination to nature and ultimately, to God.
I remember being outdoors, a lot, all day; coming in for food and water and, once replenished, to head outside soon and to experience the greatest place on Earth, outdoors.
There were other kids who we joined in with and played all types of games, mostly made up.
On a couple of occasions, I remember something happened that required adult input. Who knows what actually happened, but we needed someone to intervene.
When these occurrences arose, my grandfather, Erle, stepped in. He wasn’t a big man but he did carry a big stick. He called it his talking stick. It was a branch from the mountain area where the cabin was located. It was about 4 feet long, and he had whittled it to a reasonable smoothness.
Erle’s Sacred Space
When the truth was needed, he would call each of us in, one at a time, and sit us down at one end of their hearty dining room table. He would create a safe atmosphere. I was never afraid of my grandfather. He always made me feel safe, validated, loved. We all knew he cared.
He would tell me that his talking stick was where you could speak your truth and that you were protected.
I’m really not sure what it was made out of, either Lodge Pole Pine or Red Fir. Maybe I should take it to Harry Potter’s wand maker and find out because I know it had magical powers, at least I thought it did.
I remember this happening only twice. And, I felt that everything was righted afterwards.
When I think back about those times, I truly believe that feeling of protection has stayed with me. Ultimately, they became a marker for my most core values and beliefs.
The truth always prevails.
Now, whether there was justice that is for another time and place. For you see, if you live from and from this natural law, that the truth always, always, always prevails. Your life will experience the grandest of experiences of all, God.
That is who I am and try to live by, because when we live and breath this way of being then we are free. We can surrender any and all facades that we have created, for whatever reason we created them for and live happily contented, at peace
The interesting memory I have after having one of these moment with my grandfather, was that I felt lighter and the room became brighter. Every sense of my being was lifted, simplified.
I am smiling because I see my grandfather being the master of his creator. He always took care of what needed to be taken care of. I do not remember who he spoke with before or after our talk, or the action, if any, that was taken. All I know, then and now, was that everything was alright in the world, my world.
My husband and I are caretakers of that cabin and Erle’s talking stick still has it’s place where it always has been and will be, in it’s rightful place.