What the heck! Although I find myself believing I’m on the forefront of my awakening, enlightenment and moving forward on my path, I’ve found that I still have repeat performances of habits and beliefs that I thought were put to rest. Why is that? Mmmm. Not sure though I believe that a lot of these repeat performances have become more profound because I see them happening and I see myself having them, in them, more aware of how I am responding in the moment. Is this such a bad thing? I think not, although I do get a little peeved with myself for not just BEing with whatever comes up.
Is it a good thing? Yes… And no!
Yes, because I am “disassociating” with my ego as it is taking me on a tug of war with whatever It is happening. And, I am able to sit, breath, assess and watch myself, feel myself BEing with it all. Knowing that I can manage my energy during the process is key. Why would I want to activate a negative energy is truly beyond me.
I know this. I am a certified spiritual life coach and have the tools to deactivate the negativity. The hard part for me now is the fact that I see it with others. The hard part being that I see it within them which is within me. With that said, it means that I have to clean up my negative, pointing the finger of blame and shame, in order to heal and find joy in every moment. It also means, that the joy is in the knowingness of this simple awareness.
Letting Go of Negativity
Now the “No” aspect of this is what I just stated, that I know I need to not be in the negativity and BE in the joy for the majority of the day…no matter what is going on outside of me. Then I will be constantly in joy and there won’t be anything other then unconditional love wherever I go.
The negativity, blame and shame pointing finger is also a resistance to allowing my truth show up. How do I know this? Because I have the tools, such as, affirmations, breath work, intention, meditation just to name a few. When I use these tools I allow myself to see that these “things” are not me, they are not who I AM. I just have kept an attachment to them because they had served a purpose long ago.
It is this attachment to, clinging to some “thing” that defined who I WAS and it got me through some thing so I kept it in my baggage. You know, that, “just in case”, I needed it to help me through something in the future.Well, I am here to say that it is time to let that go.
Stay in the Moment
Let the unfolding of my truth be the I AM in the moment, whatever happens, whatever is happening or whatever will happen. Because, as some of you may know, the only moment is in the now. Being present in the now allows me to remove myself from whatever is happening, while it is happening, and let the “whatever happening”, to just unfold, let my life unfold as it should be, could be, will be.
What this does, is to let happen happen with or without my involvement other than just BEing there, in it. When this happens I am not attaching myself to something or someone else AND, whatever that something is or someone else’s stuff is, will stay that way. Some thing, someone else’s stuff. I get to keep my energy and happy state intact and whatever be will be with or without my involvement.
When I sit for a bit with this awareness, I realize that I did forget for just a brief moment. Then I remind myself that I AM an amazing light energy in a physical body having physical experiences that is my human truth. My REAL truth is that I AM light, love and connected to the greatest source, God! God knows my truth to be the co creative light and that wherever I go I spread that to everyone that I meet and everything I see. For that is my truth.
Letting go of the habits that do not serve me any longer and allow new greater more expanding habits to enter in my life. Some may not care for the term habit, but it works for me. Some may prefer to use a term that is easier for them to use, in order to, reach their desired dreams. It is all good, all for the greater good.
Don’t you think?