Took a sabbatical. Some time off and observed life. Looked at what I saw and how I responded to my life and others, and just let life be whatever.
It felt good to let certain things go and just sit in the back seat.
Growing up there were five of us kids and I remember as a child traveling in the station wagon (remember those) and my mom would sometimes take all of us to visit our grandparents or travel (not too far). She would drive pretty fast, I thought, and now I know why. From the back seats she wold hear relentlessly, “She touched me. He’s bothering me. I’m hungry. When are we going to get there. I have to go to the bathroom. Can I change places?” There were no cell phones or iPod’s in those days to entertain us.
So, my mom would make up games, basically to distract us, to quiet her world no doubt. There was the alphabet license plate game and another one was where we had to come up with words from the 3 letters on a license plate.
A Playful Life is a Better Life
I loved it. Because I loved playing games. I still play that game today as I drive. I think it keeps my brain in good working order.
My husband says I’m competitive. I say I love to play games because I love to play, especially games. Winning is secondary. The main reason is that it usually involves others and it is fun.
It gives me an excitement about the “what’s next”, the mystery of my existence or purpose. Loving the not knowing and anticipating and being enthusiastic about the next step is a great feeling, especially when it is about what is next on my path. Letting go and allowing is so freeing.
The observer is stepping back, though involved, and sensing, seeing the movie that is playing before the self. Seeing, sensing action or reaction for me and others.
Being an observer allows me to really and truthfully see my true self, sometimes humbly, learning and hopefully growing from that awakening.
My Mom was fun and a classy lady but being driven by her with the five of us in the back seats we knew we would get wherever we needed to be and fast!
I’m in the driver’s seat now and ready to experience and express those observations from a participant’s point of view. I hope you’ll enjoy the ride, it may get a little bumpy for some of you and we may go fast, but it will definitely be fun!